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xin jia por

2009-05-20T23:45:00.003+01:00

We're going to Singapore next weekend! Apparently papa got lots of good food for me to try out ;)... I abit scared tho mama say she wanna cook me food ONLY if I 95 KG again :|... But I 101-102KG so i not sure if I can make it before next week. Maybe I go on SUPER DIET before then :). Nah I cannot imagine that happening I love food too much =.=...

I recently realize I been staying longer n longer at work o.O not sure why I guess I just got nothing to come home to really... so at least I got company at work and my boss always there I can chat with him or something...

haiz I wish my wife can get a better job, she very ke lian always keep getting boss around by her ... boss... he like worst manager ever -.-

Mmmmmm

2009-05-11T19:34:00.003+01:00

Man! Ying's sandwiches really are the best. Im currently, after coming home from a hard tiring days work, eating this sandwich she prepared for me last night :) which contains the following ingredients:

Bacon, Cheese, Lettuice and Mustard Pickle on White Bread. I know it may sound like a quick-fix of a sandwich, but I really appreciate having this to eat not only because of its yumminess but the fact im so exhausted I cant be bothered to cook myself something proper :(. Really without her cooking I would be eating nothing but bits of crap around the house.

Talking of which, when I came home today and got through the door - I was greeted by a fresh waft of air. Something was different about the house. I began wiping my feet on our door mat and took my first step onto the shiney speckless floor. Ack! I nearly slipped :S. The floor was spotless, and looked well polished. I peered my head around left and right and it was like something had imploded inside the house, sucking out all the dust and debri whilst re-organizing everything to look neat and respectable. Looks like hunny's cleaned the house :P. From the state it was in and I mean everywhere was utterly cluttered, she had cleaned from top to toe and made it all clean. Thank you hunny! You did a wonderful job ^^.

Yesterday I wasnt really feeling very happy (refer to other blog but be warned its really unhappy). At the time my sister phoned to talk to me and ying, she wanted to discuss plans regarding ying going to her hen night and what not. When the phone was passed back to me I pretty much said bye and hung up. Of course now I look back and think that was pretty mean, I should have talked to her for a bit and asked how she was doing. I texted her a few times saying how sorry I was and hoping that she wasnt upset at me or anything. Fortunately this evening I got a text back saying not to worry and that she'd love to talk to me later. Phew!

My sis in law told me that her and mum were both suffering from the heat because their aircon is broken and it wont be fixed. I remember sil [sis-in-law] said to me that she wont be around today because shes going to try and get an early night... They are very ke lian because they havent really managed to get any proper sleep :(. So I text mum's mobile with the following (im not sure if what I said was correct but...)

SMS 1 Sent: Today 15:15
1 of 2
你好妹妹和妈妈. 你们两个税好. wo zhi dao nimen der fang jian shi hen he4. w
2 of 2
o xiang nimen hen ke lian ler. ai ya la. wo zuo gong ah, wan an!
SMS 2 Sent: Today 15:22
我要快来新加坡培你们！你们两个税好。晚安

First bit should be:

wo der meimei he mama. ni men liang ge shui hao. wo zhi dao nimen der fang jian shi hen he. wo xiang nimen hen ke lian ler. ai ya la. wo zuo gong ah, wan an!

my little sister and mother. you both sleep good. i know your room is very hot. i feel your very poor thing ler. nevermind. i go work ah, good nite!

Second bit:

wo yao kuai lai xin jia po pei ni men! ni men liang ge shui hao. wan an

i want to faster come singapore and accompany you! you both sleep good. nite

Wasnt amazing, but I was trying to just say I feel sorry for them that their air con isnt working and they are getting not much sleep and that I also want to go see them soon in singapore because I miss them :).

wo bu zhi dao papa der hp, so yi wo bu ke yi sms ta! dan shi wo bu xiang ta duo yong ta der hp... wo lai xin jia po ye pei ta... dan shi na ge duckie duckie... wo bu yao gei ta wan an ;) ta you ta der lao por ah whinnie. YC AI AH WHINNIE!

ehhh not really sure where im going with my chinese anymore... its probibly all wrong...

Today my work colleagues and I were summoned to go to lunch with one of our high up managers. To be honest alot of people were worried that we were all about to be fired or something as this is quite rare. Fortunately this wasnt the case, all he said was well done to everyone. I had to admit I also was getting abit worried.

Sigh... Today was really hectic at work, and I cant really go into detail. But recently my job position has been extremely demanding, everyone keeps asking me to help them with x, y and z. At the same time it seems to be a peek period for Software Support, and I have had to deal with some rather hot customers. I'm just glad that my colleagues are so understanding when not everything can get done. When I left work 30 mins late I told myself to take it easy when riding back home, nothings waiting for me there and I wont gain anything going any faster. Yet still I zoomed ahead, and im not sure why but this time going home I was extremely fast. I suppose even if I get a little out of breath I still enjoy cycling. I think that would be one of my many talents if it wasnt for computers, either BMX'ing or Mountain Biking.

Sometimes when im cycling I get a bit bored though, so I deliberately give myself stuff to think about when cycling. For example when I left work today I thought to myself... I wonder how many miles I cycle a year? When I roughly worked it out, deducting all kinds of things like bank holidays, holidays, probabilities of being driven in etc, sick days... I eventually came to the figure 1500 Miles. Quite amazing right? If I had done that straight I would have lost a ton of weight. Its the same distance of cycling from Histon to Southwold 2 and 1/2 times and back. Cuecue agrees :).

So what lays ahead of me for the rest of tonight? Sleep I guess...

... he tong liang... tong liang wo der ya chee... wan wo der dian nao... bang mang wo der zuo gong ren... shui... wan an...

I've separated out Ying and Yang.

2009-05-10T20:24:00.004+01:00

Its been AGES since I've updated this blog :/. Currently[10-05-09 20:28], in this whole wide world, in fact in this universe. There is only one person out there who knows that I have another blog. A blog to talk about all of my negative feelings. This excludes machines storing data, and I highly doubt theres someone who works at Blogger who actually acknowledged yet one of the millions of bloggers out there had just created this blog. In fact, they will most likely never know. Unless I put something devious on it, but im not going to breach any T&C :). Well... Besides swearing -.-...

So I've looked into the definitions of Ying & Yang. Yang means light and Ying means dark. Of course I would like to primarily point out that the other blog isn't to talk directly about my wife, Ying. Its just about life in general, whats going through my mind etc...

Actually in fact what I have decided this blog to be about is the Yang side of my life. Otherwise I would look like a total suicidal person :(. But really, its good not only to dwell on the bad side of life, but the good. This will help me look on the good aspects of life. Highlight the happiness I experience each day.

I would like to start off to remind myself, and tell who ever is reading this about my wonderful wife. Honestly, I really think she deserves better as she has been through alot of trouble in the past. Quite often I only end up continuing that element trouble in her life - not because I am directly an ass hole or anything, as I mentioned in the other blog I really do care about others first. As the same as a majority of couples out there, we bicker. We fight. We cry. We moan. We frown. We misunderstand. We almost physically hurt each other. But the bottom line is we love each other and come around.

Again referring to the other blog, I am very opinionated, there are some things she likes to do which I do not approve of. But that's just because we have a difference of op pinion. Just because in my mind something is not logically right, does not mean that it is logically right or wrong. For all we know, killings the best thing that we could ever do during our shortly lived life's. Sounds crazy right? Yeah I also don't believe it, but that doesn't mean I'm right about thinking its crazy. Nobody really does define rules out there. We only fight to make them. Fight for belief.

So really I'm just saying, I'm not perfect, I upset her, and I know I do. Most importantly, I really HATE upsetting her. Not because she almost bites my head off every time this happens but because it also tares me apart deep down inside to see her unhappy.

Now before I continue any further I would just like to say that, last time I did this she felt a bit uneasy being sweet talked about in front of the world. I will say shes amazing, I will say many things but I am only being honest. Whether its sappy, crappy, or anything else like that is really your problem :/. If you dont like it, dont bother reading it. But I like to look at it to remind me really of what I have.

[Mario story has gone the wrong way] (Illustration Picture by PrincessYoshi @ DeviantArt)

Many people have dreams and fantasies of what their perfect woman would be. A majority of teenage girls are looking for prince charming, where as the majority of teenage boys are looking for a fuck. Nobody out there is prince charming, and certainly I am not ying's. Just like ying isnt my perfect princess peach. But thats not what I was looking for.

If she was my perfect princess peach then I would be an absolute slob, not helping out, not paying any attention. Being lazy and unloving. And to be honest i'd say for the past year or so I have to confess, she was indeed my perfect princess peach. But each of those 365 days that she had to endure my Bowserness of bad husbandship.

Not too shortly ago, Princess Peach had found Toad, Yoshi, Luigi and most of all Mario. Mario really loved peach, infact he wanted her so bad he was looking to marry her. Thats how bad he wanted her, he was willing to be her prince charming. Of course mario isnt prince charming hes a plumber, but he is a super hero. Unfortunately to his surprise it turned out me, Bowser had beaten him to it. Mumma-Mia! However Peach really liked him! Despite the fact she was tied down to a Spiked-vicious creature such as myself, she said she would stay with me no matter how hard my spikes hurt her.

Peach would go to Mario's house with Yoshi, Luigi and Toad and they would have Pizza together! Watch movies etc. Unfortunately this made Bowser jealous because he could not spend as much time with Peach as he originally could. Of course, she before hand was locked away in Bowsers Cell until she could be convinced to marry him. But once she was his wife a year later he let her go. Every day she came back to Bowser he would be giving her grief about how she did not spend time with him. Peach worked really hard to make Bowser and Mario happy. Infact, she would have to keep walking a long distance through each level to get to each of them. She liked them both, and felt sorry for not being able to make Mario the happiest man on earth.

By the way, Bowser does like Pizza too! But Mario, Luigi, Yoshi and Toad all do not think too highly of him. No worries though, Bowser does not need extra friends. He's already got the Kooperlings to play with. Just peach had nobody really, and the Kooperlings did not have the same kind of interests Peach had...

Despite many complaints from Bowser Peach endured each one. Eventually she exploded. She kicked Bowsers ass until he was extremely sorry. Even Mario was shocked! This was his job not hers. But no, Bowser is Peach's husband - its her job to sort him out. At that point Peach was not Princess Peach anymore. She was just Peach. After Bowser blacked out, he woke up and found nearly all of his spikes had been torn off. He started to see things in a different way. Even a little jealous he still could understand most, but not all things. And it was at that point, that Bowser was not a Bowser anymore.

--

"Hun, you have been through so much in your life. Endured so much from Gary. I am sorry that I am a further burden to you."

"I hope that as we grow older, I will become more mature, and learn to deal with the world as you have naturally been able to deal with."

"Eventually, I will become a better husband. I am glad that up until now, you have been so supportive to me. Even though I have driven you to the extent of almost leaving me. You stand by my side as if its all water under the bridge."

This is what makes a wonderful wife.

Holiday to Southwold

2006-07-05T02:13:00.000+01:00

Last post I said that I was going on holiday for a few days, this is happening very recently actually infact its at the end of this week. I am going with my family to Southwold (more specific, me, mum, claire, her b/f, dad) :( I so wish I could take Carel with me she would love it. Southwold is a very picturesc place, its been tradition that the whole entire family meet up every year to spend a few days camping together (sometimes staying in apt together) but usually camping as its way more fun :).

Here's a few example pictures of the type of scenes you get when visiting Southwold:

I will be taking some shots hopefully, im borrowing dads expensive camera from him :P... Its a Canon Digital Rebel SLR 30D (Click here for more information)

Unfortunately having to go on this trip means that hunny and I will have to bare a few days apart from eachother, it will suck even more because everything I do when im there I will wish she is there too spending every moment with me and sharing the experience that I want to share with her. I will get to eventually though :(... I hope she will be ok while im gone, and I will do everything to make myself contactable, just wish I had more credit to call out.

Event times:

Leaving: friday 7th
Returning: aimed to be sunday 9th

Wow, soon it will be just one month until I get to go on my own special holiday to meet my own special person :). Getting to one month now, so short but in heart the time is so painfully long to wait. I really cant wait to spend time with you hunny, its going to be wonderful ^.^. Oh btw for everyone who previously read the blog you probibly all got really annoyed that the scrollbar was white, that was because I copied and pasted some theme and highly modified it and didnt realize at the time the scrollbar was selected to be entirely white. When I looked at it in IE (Internet Explorer) I was like wth is up with this, must be some odd IE problem with the transparency settings I set. Then I realized later -.-, so I modified the colouring and it looks pretty neat now.

I've been making a few desktop backgrounds, tied up with my photography (oh I never said anything about me being a photographer...). Frankley im not a photographer, but I do use a professional camera as of now since im borrowing it from dad. I would say im learning how to use it but its pretty straight forwards and dad told me most of what you can do with it. I.e. changing shutter speeds for exposure, ISO speeds and that other thing I cannot remember atm. Anyway, sometime later I will make a folder or something on sky-network.net containing certain artwork i've done. If I get enough people who want to also contribute to some kind of collection I could tie in a user system where people can upload their artwork and have it rated/commented or something. Please provide feedback on this if you are interested, I changed the Blog settings so people can post anonymously.

Happy holiday's everyone :) I'll keep you updated later about how things are going.

<3 to all! and I love you hunny :D

Catching up

2006-07-04T06:42:00.000+01:00

The useful features of MSN Messenger and the social capabilities of lost souls

Before I start talking about my life, the thing's i've been doing and god knows what else ill be talking about. Yesterday someone added me, unfortunately I didnt have time to identify their email address. But their nickname was "if the time passes,and you didnt see me,i am MAHDE HAIDAR remmeber me". I dont know where the person came from who or what they were, but I am guessing it was another strange wierdo from Lebanon adding me. Im not being generalizing, there are tons of wonderful people from Lebanon. I mean Emad is cool and Hitman too, AcidBurn, even Duke was a nice guy although in the end for some reason I got on bad terms with him over some silly MS Drama. But like all places there are good and bad people, either some silly twat is mass adding my email with a load of poor lebanon student MSN Messenger accounts or they are all adding me for some strange CL export share fad (fad=short lived fashon). Either way whatever's going on is very annoying because for a start when somebody adds you on their account it will put their email address on your account forever. Firstly it will be on your account in a request list to be accepted or denied on your contact list. You can either allow or block a user but you cannot delete a contact from your entire account. This is very inefficient of Microsoft to do this but when were they ever efficient? I know you can delete people from your allow list and remove from block list but even so they are still on your account. When you connect to your MSN Messenger each time it will import the whole entire list of contacts, whether they are on your allow list, block list or not on either two lists they will still be listed when you connect it is part of the MSN Messenger Protocol. So those of you who are using Dial-up, GPRS, GPS are going to have one hell of a problem.

- Technical Information

Especially GPRS as they charge you by the KB (vodafone in the UK charge 10p / 10kb). Its unfortunate that nearly everyone uses MSN Messenger, again Microsoft really have the market on this one but lack quality in their software. So every time I use a client to connect to the service I am blasted with tons of data, this can sometimes upset my wireless connection and throw me offline.

Anyway, theres your information about the instability of MSN's Service. I really could go on because the messaging behind it is just as bad, think of a HTTP header for every message you send its really dire.

Mending the broken pieces to lost words...

I havnt blogged for ages, shit when was the last time something rediculous like 1-2 months ago. So if anybody has been reading or is interested in reading about my life, I have been neglecting them. Sorry everyone. Thing's have been pretty normal, although I did finally pass my college course. I am very happy with my hunny, and we have been having lots of fun and happiness day after day :). o0o she got a new laptop recently, so her and I can be even more flexible while communicating with eachother which is nice.

- Projects

I started on a few projects, even though im suppost to be making an IRC server for John (SkyCrest). I usually dont like talking about my projects to people because whenever I do that I find other people copying what im doing and even completing before I manage to even look into it. But I am going to disclose them here and hope that everyone respects me enough not to copy these ideas.

Project 1: IRC Server - Client web based, passport based (the passport system is good)
Project 2: Graphics engine with MMX / SSE enhancements (using BitBlt,Windows Canvas,ASM)
Project 3: Sound Module (WAV,MP3,MIDI etc)
Project 4: Sky-Network Website (Tons of content)
Project 5: Accounting System (User based)
Project 6: Instant Messaging System (passport based)

There are others that exist but they arent significant enough to note. If anybody is interested in hearing any more about those projects then please comment.

Recently...

I have really mainly just been spending as much time as possible with Carel, as its what we both enjoy the most ^^. Hopefully not annoying her too much ;) jk, she enjoys my company a lot I think... otherwise I would be such a pest LOL. We've been very health contious on eachother and its been really good, I can definately tell I am a hell of a lot more healthier as recently I went to a chinese resturant with my sister and mum. The food there was really bad, fatty, my body really wasnt used to it because of the healthy food I had (my body was very pure and had really cleaned out of all the junk). It had amazing results anyway, the way it made me feel the effects it had on me etc... I really wont go into detail because it would probibly be too much information for you all :P. Anyway after describing the content of whatever I was eating to Carel she points out how non-chinese the food actually was lol, which is what I expected.

Yesterday I went clothes shopping with mum to get some new things for the trip to Singapore/KL to meet hunny. Who ever of you have seen pictures of me or know me well, you will know that I always wear black, ever since around 10 years of age or so. I would only wear things that were a dark shade of colour (this mainly included navy blue). So seeing myself wearing beige, skyblue, and white is very unusual. Infact its so unusual that when Carel initiated a Voice/Video conference with me, when I saw myself I thought it was another guy initiating a conference with me. God it shat me up so much, and then I was like -.- oh ... its me... LOL I can be so stupid sometimes.

On the whole I have been very happy with my darling Carel :). Her and I cannot wait and are very excited about me coming to Singapore to spend time with her. It will be a birthday for her to remember for sure ^^. We will be going many places together and will be taking many pictures, and of course we will be showing off our happiness :$. Going on holiday soon so my poor hunny's going to be neglected for a weekend and then a week :(. But soon enough I will be right there by her side :). I love you Carel and I hope you arent too lonely while im gone, of course I am always going to be here for you and I will try my hardest to make myself contactable. I will miss you greatly and will try and get online, my brother chris (1 week at ireland with him) has the internet and I should be able to connect there. Southwold I will be harder as no internet.

Hope all enjoyed blog! Pictures of me in my new clothes my hunny uploaded for me on my friendster, link is:
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=28702766

Take care everyone, love you hunny and miss :).

Im sorry I havnt posted much, but theres a reason.

2006-07-03T10:18:00.000+01:00

Well for a start I didnt think that anybody read this, and then I thought to myself its probibly mainly because I havnt really said much about whats going on in my life. One thing that you will definately find in me is that I am a very honest person (unless im being silly in some way but its not really dishonesty more like creativity or imaginativity, definately something "ivity" :P. I was going to resume blogging a bit ago but I never found the time, as there is a lot going on at the moment. For instance today I am going clothes shopping with mum to get some non-black clothes to wear in Singapore/KL when with hunny ^^. Woah, yeah it sounds so girly but I can assure you its a necessity unless your looking for a burnt-sky look or something. Unfortunately this blog wont be lasting long because I am just about to go out to Town with mum to do these things. I will post another blog with more on what's going on when I get back ;). Yeah even the technical stuff, maybe some of my programmer friends might find it interesting. But there will be definately something for everyone in the posts I will do. I also have to do a friendster testimonial for my FSIL (Future-Sister-In-Law), I put this here to show her I havnt forgotten and I will do it ASAP :o!

For all MSN Chat people, I hope you're all having fun I do miss a lot of you but most of you I do have on MSN Messenger so its ok. I left on the same day that Trish left MSN Chats as she pointed out to me how pointless MSN Chat's was. Of course my leave was more sane than hers, she decided to go on some drinking rampage and within a month she ended up with a car accident, im not too pleased as I hate seeing my friends screw up that much. I did tell her I would have warned her but unfortunately if I had she would have told me to go f**k myself for trying to control her life.

Carel, my love I miss you so much. I hope you call me in town or something to give me some suggestion's on what clothes I should wear etc :) i'll be thinking about you the whole way, I cant wait to come and be with you and share everything with you. 4 weeks is long but really isnt long enough, so hope you can come to england sometime for more fun ^^. Tricia, I havnt forgotten your friendster testi, dont worry itll be coming soon.

Bye all ill post later on more stuff :).

Love you Carel with all of my heart (L)

Exhausting 5 days

2006-05-29T20:19:00.000+01:00

I am sitting here, trying to relax on the sofa. I havnt done much today, not even left the house really apart from to go to the shops + watch 2 movies. Thing's are so painfully lonely and boring. My darling Carel has been gone for 4 days on her trip to HK. I miss her so much, I wish I could stop thinking about her but the one you love is just something that you cannot free off your mind. She is always with me, even in the back of my mind, even when I sleep, even when do something which would be fun I always wish she was with me by my side.

I love her so much, and I cannot enjoy myself unless she is with me. Its not that I am ungreatful but there is never a moment that I want to spend without her. I want to share every feeling, experience that I have with her, I want to share everything with my hunny :(. What's worse is shes not feeling very well at the moment, she contacted me saying she had a pounding headache and a cough.

I at first assumed it was dehydration, most likely could have been that too but I think she has the flu or a fever again. She has done a wonderful job at being able to keep contact with me while she is gone, and I am so glad she did otherwise I dont know how I would have coped without her on this holiday. She made sure that I heard her voice, and if I needed her I could call her. She is so good to me and I wish I could be there to nurse her to health, I will eventually be by your side hunny I promise, if I had the money I would hop on a plane the first chance I get to welcome you back from your long trip.

I would have went on that trip with you if I had the money so we could have had a wonderful time together. I rely on you Carel, as you are my other half and I love you so much, you are everything and anything to me. My number one, my first priority. I cannot live without you and I cant wait for this day to end, so I can be with you again. Safe and sound in home sweet home, hurry back soon my love.

* UPDATE *

She contacted me and told me she feels a lot better, yay. I hope she has a safe journey back to SG and then she can finally be back with me.

Wonderful Weekend!

2006-05-21T15:19:00.000+01:00

Another wonderful weekend with my hunny :), we spent lots of time talking, loving, and having fun ^_^. Carel is currently on her way back to KL and I miss her lots :(. We've both been so caught up we havnt really had the chance to update them much. That's why I've decided to update mine to give me something to do while im missing her >.<. Reading my hunnies blog she says:

"My life is much better now...I smile every minute and sec..."

I wanted to say how much better my life is too, by far. I really have never been treated so good and been loved as much as she does me now, and she really takes very good care of me :D. We were kinda naughty as she didnt goto bed at the time she was supposed to, and I didnt make her :P. But really, we did it because this is going to be the last weekend before she goes on holiday. How am I going to cope? I really havnt a clue, because even the smallest amounts of time is so hard without her :(. hunny I hope you enjoy your holiday and try not to miss me too much ok? We were both taking some silly tests this weekend, you know like "How good are you to your partner"... So we both decided to take a "How good a girlfriend are you" test :P. The results were, that her and I were both excellent girlfriends to one another.

URL: www.quizuniverse.com

I've been quite the photographer of Carel lately *blush*, I admire her so much I cannot help but take many many pictures of her. I also have been requesting she takes a lot herself, as I have of myself for her. We played rock, paper, sissors today over who has to kiss first :P. Very silly, but lots of fun! Having all these wonderful beautiful pictures of my hunny will hopefully keep me going while shes gone for so long. I will truely miss her as she is my life :(.

Its amazing how un-natural you feel without your other half.

2006-05-18T01:05:00.000+01:00

First of all, I believe and feel in a couple since you both are sharing eachother's love its kind of like exchanging half of eachother's heart. Therefore when your other half is not with you, you tend to feel incomplete. My hunny and I have a 7 hour time difference, she is +7 from (GMT+1). Therefore that means that we have to bend the rules of our own time zone a little to accustom eachother, kind of like two people meeting in a mutual time zone. Usually in a relationship both of the couple will spend time with eachother on certain days etc although all couples do differ. Carel and I are very different from most relationships, as we will go out of our way to make sure we get every minute even every second we can together. Although we do our best we still have to live in our own timezones, and sleep at different times... This is de-syncronised and causes emotional strain not being able to be together as much, made me very sad today not being able to be with her. She means the world to me as all of you can see. I think im rather fragile actually since I have a cold, might be getting a fever Carel thinks. She's here now so im a lot happier :), and starting to feel normal again (despite cold). She gave me lots of pics of her today ^^, made me very happy :D! Apart from that , I watched Gundam Wing to pass time while my darling wasnt here >.< and ate a few things.

I have had one of the best weekends of my life!

2006-05-14T20:44:00.000+01:00

Carel my darling baby ^_^ (omg shes so pretty!!!, tell her off for not thinking it)

Guess who I spent this wonderful weekend with? Carel of course ^_^, we had so much fun even if it was just being with one another. Exchanging vowles of love etc, talking about many different things and just simply relaxing. I've never been so happy in my life, and its all because I am getting to spend it with my true love. Unfortunately, the weekend was soon to be over -.-... but we have other weekends :), and even so the weekends over doesnt mean we cannot talk ;). I really shouldnt be bragging so much about how happy I am, and how wonderful Carel is. I did make something Chinese today with the help of Carel, she helped me make a half boiled egg with soya sauce. It was declicious and I wish to cook it again, perhaps share it with someone (I wish it could be her). Thats about it for this weekend, apart from that I downloaded tons of Gundam Wing episodes o.0!

My intentions

2006-05-12T20:37:00.000+01:00

I guess who ever is reading this is wondering why I made this Blog, the purpose of it, my intentions when I write Blog-articles. The main reason I created this Blog is because someone who is very close to me also has a Blog, which caught my eye and made me interested. The fact that in your Blogs you can speak your mind and have people read it, whoevers interested anyway. If you would like to know the basics about me, click information to find out.

So whats on my mind? I would say a lot, or perhaps a large thing. Let me introduce you to someone very special to me, if you dont already know her. I know some of you have found me through her links page on her Blog. For those of you who do not know who I am talking about, her name is Carel and nickname is Bee. She is a very special, wonderful loving and caring person.

Im sorry to embarrass her like this, talking about her but there is so much more I want to say about her. She means an awful lot to me, and I love her so much. From all the time Ive spent with her Ive never felt more comfortable in my life, and Ive never felt loved the way I do now. I hope I give her plenty love in return as she deserves every bit of it and more.

The fact that I have such a special person in my life is wonderful, she is everything I could ever want or even need. She tells me her only desire is for my happiness, and that is true love right there. I feel the same way, and I promise I will do everything I can to make her the happiest woman as I do feel the happiest man. I dont want to drag this on, and some of you readers might find it painfully sappy. But it cannot be said any other way, and this way I find most appropriate.

I love you Carel, with all of my heart and thank you so much for being in my life, for loving me the way you do, for wanting to spend your life with me. Even what Ive wrote so far is nothing in comparison to how wonderful she is, if there was a way to show you all then I would do. I do intend on spending all of my entire life with her and I will never let her go, and trust me I will take very good care of her.

I love you Carel.